1. |
Tape
01:00
|
|||
2. |
||||
I promise all those drinks I had were from the bottom of my heart
I soaked myself in sincerity and pretended it’s a place to start
I threw myself around the room and eventually I came back with you
Well, it’s a wise demise that shines and blinds
And keeps you there for at least a little while
And somehow it all gets dropped
Under blankets of youth and a ticking clock
And the shades of grey
Become a pattern we accept and an excuse to stay
The days alone can make love bloom
With the turning of my head
My future wife across the room
Is going downstairs instead
And our children start to slip away
As I’m struggling just to say my name
I’d put my arm through a pane of glass
If only to have your name on my cast
And somehow it all gets dropped
Under blankets of youth and a ticking clock
And the shades of grey
Become a pattern we accept and an excuse to stay
And how carelessly cold
I can be to the things I’m told
And your eyes as they try to find
A feeling that is recognized.
|
||||
3. |
||||
When did the time come
When all was strange
And the lies told
Protected my name
Where even how I spend my days
Grows larger as my shoes stay the same
I've got a room now, not a house
And some bullshit, I could do without
The debt hangs on my wall
Next to posters that teenage hands had bought
I dream of gasoline and a thousand miles
And bar rooms and strangers' smiles
A rock n' roll dream turned low
Content with simply just to go
But I believe
That someday I'll see
How it all just bleeds
Into the days that escape
Not the months or the years we thought it just ok to wait
Well I'm always sincere, but I'm not always honest
A surgeon's hand for the lonely among us
When tried I will tie my tongue
Defend intentions for damage done
Cause when conscience calls, we'll see our friends
As a tunnel of light for the deeper in
The guiltiest of minds gathers weight from the better times
So in them I'll hope, and in them I'll believe
To let a misstep's print get buried with leaves
Set the fire and watch it burn
Engulf our love and resentments earned
|
||||
4. |
Welcome Home
05:40
|
|||
Today I found
a syringe on the ground outside my house
I wondered if they came
from a family that could be blamed
or a highly regarded name
And just off to the right
was some broken glass from bottles we dropped last night
We had celebrate too long
the acceptance of a friend to study law
la la la la la la
A girl at a party once said,
"All these broken streets are meant to be."
She caught the beauty with her film
I wondered if it was framed
and hung up on display down at the local baristas' cave
Well in three weeks her lease
would be up and her internship would have switched
to some spot in Connecticut
Well the feeling of home will fade
Carry on the call regardless of the name
And blame and blame and blame
And a couple of neighborhoods down
contractors are hitting the ground
with some grants for renewal
When it's finally cool I guess we'll all move...
|
||||
5. |
||||
It’s four o’clock,
the door is locked
and I’m home
Your hands are full
grocery bags after school
the girls in tow
I know well, yeah, I know well
that you’re tired
Well, so am I
A softball game,
at the keg I asked your name,
after a while
The gold of your hair
caressed the dirt on your shirt
and your smile
And now your old number
is staring back at me from the bottom of a plastic bag
we’re giving away
The cracks in the years
can swallow kisses and the tears
till they’re gone
So all that’s left
are the memories when it was best
to push us along
But 20 years in, if I catch the right wind,
I can smell it all
I can feel it all.
|
||||
6. |
Falling Up
05:13
|
|||
She came in from outside alone
Put her lips to the glass and came up surrounded
Where she came from, I don't know
But the chain's around my neck
and I'm in the corner
I should just forget
Last night I dreamt a baby crawled off a roof
Nobody seemed to care except for the mother
Reclining chair and 80 proof
A single shriek rings out and waits for another
I should just forget
The letter in my hand unsent
You can't answer your phone to give me the address
Four years of friendship washed to an end
But there's memories to be made and you were the fastest
I should just forget
|
||||
7. |
Marry Me
01:52
|
|||
I'd rather try
than sell my heart to some fucking contract
Grab her by the arm and say, "It's OK. We're all the same."
Understate while fully knowing
the years ahead will surely gather blame for our youth-less days
We'll share the name
counting thank you's while the ones we tried to escape
slowly fall away
When all seems right
the tears will fly over locking eyes and her friendly hand to my arm
And when the words fail, we don't
And when you say come, I won't
And we'll grow to see
|
||||
8. |
||||
I tried my best last night not to call you
but the fire came from inside
A brain of ash and crimson crimes
Circular rims and cloudy bathrooms
Well count it as another line
We have our nights then we define
But I can't go back to those feelings that you lacked
and the mornings you'd pretend to sleep
And those guys downtown
never wanted me around
So I fucked off and stumbled my way home
You didn't call that night so I called her
1:30 I'm a puddle at her door
The shortest of grasps for something more
Kick drum basements and stained glass lawn chairs
Your voice came from the other side
I never knew you to be so shy
But it's all I can to do
just to be with you
The lazy and the scared expire
But through tightly closed mouths
springs the sound of sudden doubt
and the urge to carry on floats high
floats high
|
||||
9. |
Shared Apartment
03:52
|
|||
"Don't be shy. It's all alright,"
she said as she slowly undressed
And he quickly learned there's no concern
that her body, it could not suppress
A couple of weeks and the silence just creeps
through the offices and car rides home
And a stomach sick with indignant trips,
excuses, and turned off cell phones
A quiet night under their kitchen light
She smiles as she pours him some wine
And he was never more sure
he had ever loved her more
than right there with guilt at his side
And the weight of a roof that's shared cuts through
even shopping lists and bills paid
And though their fingers are bare
this outsider's glare
brings youth and confines to his eye
A trip to the park as the day meets the dark
and the leaves see the last of the year
And as families surround, she thinks out loud,
"I could see wanting that someday."
With dark glasses on, tired and calm
the words fall like a newly remembered song
And the pain in her stare as she quietly declares,
"I cannot believe this at all."
She cries, "I'd never do these things to you.
How can you do them to me?"
She cries, "I'd never do these things to you.
How can you do them to me?"
|
||||
10. |
Hang On For The Day
06:25
|
|||
Well you say you write letters just to keep from floating off
But your tired eyes and cough only seem to belie you
Cause all those nights you stand
with your dreams clenched in your hands
And even your subtlest demands
only seem to amuse them
In the forefront of your mind
is a fence that's bleeding white
But the ones that are in your sight
only see what surrounds them
So you'll hang on for the day
you can put your heart away
And he will do the same
Become one within the frame
But we'll come knocking down your door
with the same warning as before,
"You're too young to give this up."
And you'll say, "No, I'm giving more."
Well in the deadening summer heat
fresh feelings have arrived
But when you're out of work by 5,
he's squinting through daylight
In warehouses and dance spaces on crowded Friday nights
his hand has grasped yours tight
as he smiles down upon you
Through beads of sweat and shortened breath
you scream the chorus along
And though you know that nothings wrong
you still long to be somewhere
with a man by your side
on a couch by firelight
and another in the next room
sleeping quietly for the first time
So you'll hang on for the day
you can put your heart away
And he will do the same
Become one within the frame
But we'll come knocking down your door
with the same warning as before,
"You're too young to give this up."
And you'll say, "No, I'm giving more."
|
||||
11. |
Mr. Saturday Night
05:18
|
|||
We rounded the corner as we started to shout
with all the doubt that's inflamed in drunken mouths
Casual comments to some girls who walk by
but they're forced shy by the gaze of eighteen eyes
And then
It all began again
Oh and then
It all began again
Familiar faces and some names I can't place
Polite smiles and empty questions
are keeping the pace
Shoulders brushed and there's a rush for the door
One says, "Faggot I've never seen you around here before."
And then
Men were made again
Oh and then
Men were made again
Attempt some gestures to a girl I don't know
I take her thank you's for her love as she examines her phone
A good friend sits back and laughs at us all
But then she cries when her boyfriend misses a call
Cause then
She's all alone again
Oh and then
She's all alone again
But to waist these two nights
if a feeling that we don't like
Cause the days in-between
are all that they really can be
Dry mouth and some dreams about you
shake me awake as the morning light comes breaking through
All the drinks are pressing
but too tired for the stairs
So I'll toss and I'll turn for two more hours
Pounding, I don't want to wake up
|
Monday Appreciation Society Philadelphia, Pennsylvania
Recording project consisting of Philadelphia musicians Mark Rybaltowski and Dan Wisniewski.
Contact Monday Appreciation Society
Streaming and Download help
Monday Appreciation Society recommends:
If you like Monday Appreciation Society, you may also like:
Bandcamp Daily your guide to the world of Bandcamp